Excruciating Pain: A Personal Struggle Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome
It began on a dreary Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sharp pain sprang behind my one eye. Then came rapid stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with greater force. Four times that day I left a colleague with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.
The attacks returned frequently that fall, and once more in the spring, soon forming an annual pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: aura in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-blown pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
This condition often start with intense discomfort behind a single eye that lasts for several hours.
Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches usually start with sudden, severe agony around a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long symptom-free periods.
What unites sufferers is the severity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. Another found a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during attacks; the figure fell to four percent when they were not in pain.
Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.
Her family often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.
Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic pain took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The first description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the subject. They linked the disease to an evil spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.
Ancient medical texts propose bizarre treatments for what modern observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.
It was a European doctor who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.
The disorder were only formally recognised by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key artery that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent experts in diagnosing the disorder explain this.
In 1998, researchers released the results of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.
Despite such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four surgeries before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.
Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common headache conditions, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough history is essential: on which side do symptoms appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.
A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor guided me through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack eased.
National guidance on management advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific drug administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the bouts of some people.
But leading neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are managed with abortive therapy only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.
The national guidance need revising to reflect a